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My type..

We were having this conversation at work today about ‘types’ and I do have to say that my type would actually fit one of my friends perfectly. But I’m too shy to say anything to them because they don’t normally live in the area anymore (unless they are visiting their parents that is). My type has to do with how sweet and caring a person is on the inside and if they can...

Dec 14th

Who Is Travis Clark?: Money and Time →

whoistravisclark: Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day. Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course? Each of us has such a…

Dec 7th

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Thank you for choosing sex over friendship. Now I...

When you have a friend who knows that their boyfriend/sexual partner (I don’t know what to call him since he’s getting married to a different woman) is lying about you, at work and is telling you that they are going to do everything they can to get you fired what would you do? I expected her to at least explain it to the guy outright that I was not saying those things. Instead she...

Nov 13th

Sometimes I wonder about my experiences

I know that I have not had many experiences in the relationship department. When I have had the experience it just wasn’t as far as many other people have had. I go into this mainly because it seems like all the people that I know now adays have either lived alone with someone they are into or they are already living with this person right now. Now I’m not complaining about my living...

Nov 5th

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Sep 17th

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No you are not on this list....

I don’t know how I’m feeling right now, I’m currently liking the fact that I’m single yet all around me my friends are either hooking up with people and finding their one true person or at least getting together with someone and letting it last when they should have ended it a long time ago just so they could feel happy for a little bit longer. I find myself in this...

Sep 10th

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streeter: benjoseph: collegehumor: I’m Such a Nerd (with Katrina Bowden) If you want to be her lover, you have to LARP with her friends. I wrote this sketch starring Pat and the lovely Katrina Bowden of 30 Rock fame. I have huge crushes on both of them. I had nothing to do with this sketch. But I certainly enjoy it! What the Hell! Martha Jones is certainly my favorite out of the most...

Jun 16th

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I feel really stupid right now

Who the heck tells you that they love you and then turn around and say they aren’t in it for long term? I feel used. I want to cry. I have cried, and I’m at work. Why out of all the things he had to say did he have to go aand tell me that he has thought of breaking up with me just because it would be easier? I mean, he has gone and told me how he didn’t tell me about something...

Mar 18th

Giddy...

Now I do know the feeling is mutual… I’m very happy and content. I’m also very glad that he is too… ^^

Feb 9th

Maybe I should just sleep my days away

I’ve been getting so depressed lately that all I want to do is sleep. So far no one’s called me back about hanging out when I really need to get out of here and be around friends. I’ve just gotten so tired and so lonely this past weekend that it feels like all I have been doing lately has been sleeping. But most of the reason’s I know of that people aren’t calling...

Jan 30th

I feel as if death has made a new friend...

I don’t know if this is a little bit too personal but I don’t really care; About a month ago my cat disappeared, we soon found out that he had crawled up under my parents house and died. Buddy was my cat, and to have him do that upset me, he was probably the only guy to ever give me unconditional love. Then a week later my parents decided to put down a dog that was about 13 years old....

Jan 30th

Sometimes I just wish...

Loneliness is something that I know that I suffer from on a day to day basis usually I have someone to call and talk to when I am feeling all cold and alone; but I know that there are those days that even then I can’t call anyone. I feel as if I’ve lost many people that used to be dear to me and have gained nothing to show for it. I have read the Chinese zodiac on many different...

Jan 23rd

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This is Hilarious! OMG!

Jan 22nd

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Today went by very slow...

I’m going to miss Cheyenne… Today went by so slow I felt like it was midnight when it was really 6pm. I was not having a good night. =(

Jan 21st

I feel I f-ed up...

With me I always fee this way after going out with someone. I am always judging myself harshly but, this one I really want to convince myself otherwise. Maybe I’m just a hopeless case that tries too hard, but I kinda like it that way. I know I may be too nice, or I may just have said something that kinda set him off… but I hope not…

Jan 17th

Jan 11th

Motion City Soundtrack - Even if It Kills Me ...

Jan 10th

Jan 5th

Reading a romance novel

Reading a romance novel is really making me realize how alone I really feel. I mean I have friends that are around for me, but they seem to almost always have someone. But little ol’ me has to always be the one that listens; I mean I don’t mind being alone, it’s just on the holidays it sticks out more because everyone’s with their family and loved ones. Me, who am I with?...

Dec 25th

Midtown - Direction I feel as if I am running out...

Nov 3rd

The Four Seasons...

I wrote this while I was at work without a book. Sometimes there’s just nothing to do there while waiting for Chas to come out and tell us where we will be and the new updates that have gone on with our tests. Summer blossoms the trees to green Flowers wilting, a week ago gleamed Sun shimmers and kisses the flesh Many should have gotten much much less Browns, reds, golds confetti the grass...

Sep 26th

I've been posting in private...

I’m a little ashamed of it but I’ve been posting in this blog in private just because I don’t want people to be cyber stalking my site and finding out that I like them in certain ways and then tell me that they don’t like me. I’m just happy being friends with someone if they don’t like me more then that, but I find over and over again that people seem to have it...

Sep 26th

... For lack of a better title...

So today I was getting bossed around like no other. You know I am usually fine being the Lacky, but when someone actually starts getting angry at me because I didn’t straighten the pencil correctly that’s when I start getting upset. I do also appreciate a please and thank you every once and a while. Everyone knows that I always say it. I don’t know why but I have been getting...

Sep 17th

They should really put some lights up on I205

Every night when I’m driving home I’m almost driving in pitch black because there is a certain part of I205 that has no lights around it. That area is from the Padden Parkway Exit all the way to the Salmon Creek Exit. For those minutes that I’m driving on the road all I can think about is whither I could accidently run something/someone over just because they could be drunkenly...

Sep 15th

Who Is Travis Clark?: Life. →

I feel so bad for him because I totally know what he’s going through. whoistravisclark: I’ve always been open about my personal life with people who care about me so I wanted to say something: Sasha and I after 8 years have come to an end. We grew apart while I was on the road touring for the past 3 years. I think she will always love me but in this case she fell out of love with...

Sep 14th

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Texting

Sometimes I wonder how far I will go just for that little bit of social contact. I was totally bother my friends while they were busy during my lunch at 10:15-10:45ish. I know that I should have just left them alone, but I just could not get myself to stop. I needed something to do. I needed an output, acceptance. I always have felt like an outcast with my epilepsy. I have always let myself put...

Aug 26th

Aug 25th

Is it right?

Is it right to like a colleague? I don’t know how he feels back and I don’t have the guts to ask him or anyone of his friends. Lately I just haven’t been able to get him out of my mind. I’ve been trying to forget about it but I instead see him at work and he always smiles at me, and/or asks how I’m doing and if I’m getting off work. I just don’t know...

Aug 15th

I wonder why sometimes

Inside the depths of my being I know that I cannot let him go. That I will hold onto that string of hope. But also that one little strand of hope needs to be severed sometime traumatically by someone or something. I don’t know how, because I’ve already lied to myself countless times over and over about certain things and instead of believing what he himself told my best friend I...

Jul 29th

Who Is Travis Clark?: ok so here is what's going... →

So… I’m confused… FIFA starts in June.. @_@ Clue, Kings’ Carriage Style: (based on the true story) Crime: FIFA Soccer 2010 went missing in the Kings’ Carriage. Nobody seems to know where it is or what happened to it. Facts: 1) The game was last scene on the morning of April 27th, 2010 by @RealTalkChrisV. 2) Somebody cleaned the…

May 10th

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I need to get this next paycheck! →

This is the best gamer movie EVER!

Apr 5th

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okies I really do like him, but I don’t know if the feeling is mutual.

Apr 1st

Dreams they can be scary...

I had a dream last night that I got fired from Target. I don’t know what it was but all the boxes were open on the line and most of the stuff used. No one noticed but me, perhaps because I was lagging in the scanning. I told my boss that it looked like a goodwill truck. I asked her why we were unloading something with no boxes. She accused me of challenging her. We got in a big row and I...

Mar 4th

I need hours

At either job basically. I’ve been getting alot at the hospital thanks to Gwen but I need hours that pay soon. I’ve been getting cut hours alot and it’s not fun to look at a paycheck that’s under $200. Also at the end of the month I won’t have insurance, which really sucks for me but what can I do?

Feb 26th

Oh you've gained some weight, you've gotten...

Thanks mom… no wonder I have Self esteem issues.

Feb 22nd

I was better off left alone....

I really wish sometimes that I could almost stay inside my dreams I am always so much happier there. But I have to face reality in the fact that I am all alone and I have some people in my life that have to point it out as a flaw or something. I guess I’m weird. I like being a nerd and I know that all my friends see me as one. I may goof off only every once and a while to poke fun at...

Feb 13th

Why do guys mislead?

Do men find pleasure in misleading a girl into thinking ‘oh I like you’ then turning around and just saying to their friends “I’m just mooching her” I really find it heartbreaking when I get lead on like that. I’ve had that happen more then once and believe me it’s not nice. I don’t know what guys think when they do that type of thing but it hurts...

Feb 11th

Nobody actually knows do they?

Who I really am is locked up inside me and I just wish that someone of the opposite gender knew who that person was. I know that at least one person knows and that person is my friend Crystal. I wonder sometimes if I’m just going to waste my life away trying to figure out what is going to happen next. If I’ll find Mr. Right. So far I know that the people that I fall for are always...

Feb 10th

Nice guys finish first with me...

So I guess I just don’t look/sound all that appealing or something because no one answers my messages that I send out. My idea of the perfect guy has changed so many times that I just wish sometimes that instead of everything being so horrid at trying to figure things out that some perfect guy would find me. My perfect guy now would be some nice guy (I’m tired of the bad ones, I had...

Feb 9th

We are, we are... Invisible.

Sometimes I wonder if people even read this blog or if it’s just sitting in the vast internet to one day be discovered by some pervert that will take quite a few of the things I say the wrong way. So now people that are younger then me are getting married and I feel like the outsider that will never reach that point in my life. Especially when the last boyfriend I had was very abusive and...

Feb 3rd

Sometimes.. I'm just plain lonely

I realize that I will probably be alone for the rest of my life as I know that I’m not that pleasing to look at, I look like a boy, like my father to be exact. Many people I’ve noticed are more afraid of my intelligence and the fact that I’m a musician that plays an instrument that is bigger then myself. I also noticed that the only men that are interested in my are people that...

Jan 7th

Up at 1 to work at 2

Just had to get up at one in the morning. I’m still not awake enough to be coherent so I wonder if I’ll be any good at work but it all depends on the people at work and if they’re any better, because if I’m more awake then they are then I’ll look to be the best one out of the bunch. Everyone’s having to go to work at this time right now for Target because we are...

Dec 24th

Christmas time...

Too many gifts, too little time. I’ve been making scarves for everyone at my work at a slow yet steady pace. So far, all I’ve gotten done is about 5 of them. Scarves take a while and it takes a lot of yarn to make one. But I’ve been trying to get them done for my friends. Other then that I’ve decided to get my bridge shaved on my bass. I’ve been playing with my five...

Dec 24th

My favorite band broke up...

So Armor for Sleep is no longer and I am depressed about it. I know that I cannot change anything about the fact that they either cannot afford new band equipment that works or they cannot stand each other anymore. But seeing as they were my favorite band then I shall go ahead and try to find a way to preserve them always in my memory. I have been thinking that eventually when I finish school and...

Nov 13th

Always feeling sick...

Sometimes I wonder why I always feel sick in the evenings. Panic attack? No I’m usually home around that time, if not then I’m at a place that is rather comfortable. Hunger? No, I’ve usually eaten a good healthy dinner. Medication? Maybe, I’m just not sure on that one, maybe my pills have finally expired. But the one thing I think it is is the fact that I never actually...

Oct 29th

Working...

Ok, so this guy Joe has a very bad staring habit. But I do have to say that he is the cutest out of all the newbies that just came to my work. Today Gillian made my day by announcing over the speakers that everyone should be doing to time warp because the song was playing. I grew up as an art schooler so the time warp is always something we all just stop and did. Shelly is getting back to her...

Oct 27th

Movies...

I watched my month’s worth of movies this past week. I don’t know why other then because I’m a music buff, but I really fell in love with ‘The Phantom Of The Opera’ The last soundtrack of a musical that I want would have to be ‘Fiddler on the Roof’ At least for now. I realize now how much I love romance stories. If I’m ever feeling down and...

Oct 25th

Sometimes I wonder...

I wish sometimes that I could do something for my friends. Many of them almost always seem like they are in agony and I feel ashamed that I cannot help them. That I am caught up in my own little world to figure out what to do to make them feel any better. If I was just able to help my friends maybe I would feel like a better person. I’ve noticed lately that I’ve actually started to...

Oct 21st

I~ promise to stop now, to stop now.

I am numb, I don’t know how to feel. I think I’ll listen to some Qu

Oct 20th