I don’t know how I’m feeling right now, I’m currently liking the fact that I’m single yet all around me my friends are either hooking up with people and finding their one true person or at least getting together with someone and letting it last when they should have ended it a long time ago just so they could feel happy for a little bit longer. I find myself in this position mainly because I don’t want to date the few people that have brought up the idea of dating to me. Most of them being old friends that I haven’t seen in a long time that I didn’t know for the whole time I was hanging out with them ect. that they had a thing for me.

That being said I found out in a rather personal note that I just can’t deal with them because I know that they like me and their little ticks which were originally funny games are more prominent flirting gestures. Especially since they let it out into the open they are even more presumptuous with their flirting gestures and who I hang out with which it is none of their business. Some of these people even have come by and broken up a get together, just because I have given another person a hug after a very long time of not seeing them.

But then again there are those few that I would want to date if they would just get the balls to ask me out or if they just simply weren’t with people. I big problem right now is that I’ve dated to many guys that are loving and caring but they never seem to have anything else going for them. They are awesome boyfriends, but they don’t have that much experience in just plain hanging out or having fun. 

I made a list that seems to explain everything that I want from a guy, but as my friend says I have to be willing to give up on finding the ‘perfect’ guy and just find one that matches most of those on my list. Seeing as most of the things on my list are actually personality I can easily compromise the physical attributes. But still that only leaves a few people out there. Those few that I already know are the people that would never ask me out or they are as I said simply with someone already.

Oh well, being alone right now is fine with me. I’ve gotten used to it and I think, it’s gotten used to me.