Well, last night was a bit informational, I never thought that I would learn so many things in such detail over the course of 3 hours. It was fun, my father was a little iffy about everything, and he kinda skedaddled after a little bit. I learned things about Allen that I thought would have been better left unsaid to my mother who now see’s him differently.

I mentioned something to Gwen last night. ‘I think he’s avoiding me, and kinda has been since the incident with Jacob’

She kinda made me feel better, but I wonder if I’ll ever be able to talk to him privately and tell him something that I’ve been meaning to say for about oh, since he was in his senior year? But every time I get the courage I see him get with someone and then I get with someone. I feel horrible for if I hurt him, but I can’t change the past I can only hope my courage comes up again so I can tell him that I never meant to hurt him.