Loneliness is something that I know that I suffer from on a day to day basis usually I have someone to call and talk to when I am feeling all cold and alone; but I know that there are those days that even then I can’t call anyone. I feel as if I’ve lost many people that used to be dear to me and have gained nothing to show for it.

I have read the Chinese zodiac on many different columns and all say that I’m supposed to have a good year because this is the year of the rabbit, my year. But all I can see coming out of all this is just doom and gloom. I just wish at times that I hadn’t isolated myself so much. Life would have been just soo much easier if I hadn’t felt alienated by all my peers at such a young age. Damn genetics.

I wonder if I’ll ever find anyone that I could talk to on a regular basis that isn’t afraid of me or intimidated by my attitude. I don’t want all this gloom anymore, I want something happy to pick up in my life.

Summer Calls

Sunlight gleams out from the sky

Nature seems to not know why

Warm sensations touching our skin

Vitamin D to which we give in

Birds sing a chorus of fine tuned chirps

‘Summer is coming’ they call from a birch

Spring clouds burnt away, finally it’s here

Summer calls from somewhere near.

Dreams of You

Scenes of you

Scenes I keep

Closed in my mind

But not in my heart

Scenes of dreams

Drift to my sleep

Of you and me

Finally I weep

To see these scenes

and know not the truth

They’re then dreams of lies

Kept in my mind.