Who I really am is locked up inside me and I just wish that someone of the opposite gender knew who that person was. I know that at least one person knows and that person is my friend Crystal.

I wonder sometimes if I’m just going to waste my life away trying to figure out what is going to happen next. If I’ll find Mr. Right. So far I know that the people that I fall for are always dorky looking in a way, but they look perfect to me because usually they’re goofy and they don’t really care what people think of them. Well at least a few of them did anyway. I just wish…

Well screw what I wish it never comes true, all my luck was absorbed out of me while I was a little child.

Sometimes I wonder if people that look really happy actually turn out that way or if there are things going on behind closed doors.