On the isle of CONFUSION

I love him yet I don’t. I wish him evil yet I don’t. Sometimes I just don’t know what I want.

Jacob is back and out, but his want and needs are so not the same as mine. He basically makes it so I cannot sleep at night cleans every waking moment is always searching for a new job even when he’s supposed to be at his old one. He needs to find a way to calm down because sometimes I cannot stand it.

Even whan I want to be with him he busies himself. What should I be doing?